March 12, 2013
Today I decided to start speaking my truth. So, as manifestation has it, a (not so surprising) email surprised me in FB inbox. It was my niece who is a young adult now had insisted I continue my blog because she always found them inspiring. It was a nudge from the Universe. And so this is so…
I was quite hesitant to start speaking online. In fact, the cyber world was something I was afraid of. After an eye-opening discussion with some dear friends who said, all I see you do is post your events, classes and performances, I don’t even know who you are. People online now a days create relationships, you’re not just a company blasting sales and ads all over the place, you’re a person.
So Hello Cyber World…Nice to Meet you…I guess this is me…
So, in the later parts of last year I went on an internal search. I mean, if I wanted to stay up to date with the evolving times, be a contributor to the world, and be authentic, I definitely had some work to do. Time to start shedding some skin here baby. They said the world was going to end December 21, I think my new world just started then…as it did for everyone I guess.
By the end of this month I’ll be reaching my 6th month of devotion to yet again, understanding my new truths. Even more so, when I pulled out my calculator, at the end of March, I will be reaching my 10th year anniversary from quitting my engineering job. Holy MFG! Yah!
Looking back at some of the things that have helped me in this journey, I wanted to share with you some of the things I’ve learned.
LIFE LESSON #1
ACCEPTANCE OF TODAY: In life we are either moving towards or moving away from something. Like this picture. I left engineering to go towards a dream to perform, teach and affect lives as well as towards my deeper understanding of my humanness to live in full acceptance with my sexuality.I was also moving away from a life of expectation, rules, and status quo challenges of what ‘success’ was suppose to look like.
Today, I can finally see that the journey towards success doesn’t look the same across the board. It wasn’t linear. It was a dot. A spot, a point. With my very logical mind, this was a hard one to grasp. I struggled with placing a label on me so that I could define an identity. Am I just a Hip Hop Dancer, an engineer, nope, how about a performing artist, what kind of artist, not a poor one, someone who makes a lot of money…is that possible?
The truest acceptance of success is the truest acceptance of where you are today, what you believe in today, what you are feeling today. Not right, wrong, good or bad, it is exactly what it is. That is the only truth that you know, and nothing else. So when we can live truly in the moment of full appreciation of what is happening right now, it will give us the answers to which direction we so choose to go from here. It’s like playing. You get lost in the moment, you love every moment of it, you’re fully engaged and you’re perfectly in the right place at the right time…or not and you laugh about it.
Stay tuned for more Life Lessons. Thank you Bea for inspiring me to stay connected and share my story. And so it shall.
you’re more than welcome tita D. as always, very inspiring writing and resonates with truths i hold dear in my soul but tend to forget often. this is something the internet helps a lot with, to keep us “close” and in touch with people who ignite our flames, fellow enlightened coals that help us burn brighter for longer when we stay together :D
i start a lot of sentences with “i wish…” .. i tried to change this by saying “i will” instead, but i’m in the stage where that’s still a bit daunting and it still makes me freeze in my anxiety… your post today reminds me that it’s only as simple as saying “I am..”
This is where/who/what I am, and I will choose to cherish and be happy with it. :)